Posted in Loss, Love

So Gone

I’m physically holding you in my arms
And can feel the distance between us
You marooned me on this island
Close enough for your comfort
Just far enough to evade my touch
Saying all the right things to keep me here
Doing everything else to get me to leave
Enjoying the sunset without me
Meanwhile I’m seating here on your couch
chained to your scent
Regretting that I let my guard down.
Now I hate sunsets

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Posted in Love

Exchanging Notes

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I can only explain how I see you

If only you tell me what my eyes should see

Absorbing the temperature of the water through my open wound

Still not afraid of the pain

Just terrified at the outcome

Cold stares mixed with lust and tainted dreams

Makes the morning after it ends

The answer to her question “Why all these concrete walls”

I saw the semblance of something good

A plea for companionship

I said “What your eyes should see is a cove

But this cove is not for any ship”

Only a vessel capable of decimating these barriers

I’m on the verge of letter go so let your now and forever speak

Need you to lift me from this peak of self-ostracism

I seek new love, new expectations

New life to my ever dwindling optimism

What I want from you is what you should want from me…Everything

Let’s exchange our ideas and outlooks on life

Our fears and fractured beliefs on how things should be

Our demands on today and forever

Let’s exchange a you and an I

For Us

Posted in Thinkingoutloud

Tomorrow

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Looking forward takes hope from me

Closing my eyes feeling the wind on my face

Trying to replace the thoughts of anguish with memories of joy

But that joy brings more hate

Disdain for the trace of any thought of your slayer breathing

Over powers my value for human life

 

Took away your breathing

They placed you in a box

They placed my Mento in a hole

 

Therapeutic the dismantling of words

Horrific the conjuring of verbs to elaborate further

the reality that you are not here

Not smiling like you used to

Not accommodating my antics

So calm but so frantic and lost in my own inability to accept the truth

 

They took away your breathing

They placed you in a box

My Mento is no in a hole

 

So no more emerald in the distance

Crimson reign over all I see

Maroon on the plain white surface that is their thoughts

Having the impudence to conceive such a notion

Laying fire to a blooming field

Castrating our demands on tomorrow

 

When they stop you from breathing?

And placed you in a box

 

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Posted in Love

Love Note 6

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Hating  you in the dark
Or making love with the lights on
Lips against mine is like dancing to the right song
The right note can change your perception
I want to be in tune with your heart beat
Only if it beats for me

Posted in Loss

The Parting Gift

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Been meaning to touch you

With your finger prints on foreign soil

I’m unable to trust you

Why lie to me?

Your reply only confirms this sigh between your whispers

Nourishing off this distance between us

Alone again I grow cold of intangibles

Need something to hold on to

Give me a reason to breathe life into the idea of wanting you

Give me a reason to stay

Deaf, dumb, blind and dismayed

Where infatuation meets madness

Where the lines of love turn grey

Where I died to have you see me in the light that I bathed you with

A cold kiss and a cold heart

What a lovely parting gift

Posted in Thinkingoutloud

The Right Words

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This is interesting

Ebony tentacles incarcerate my interest

Unable to breath I die

Finding solace in blank canvases

Spring lives in your eyes

Hope to never find winter on your lips

Nor a tear on your cheeks

May your beautiful smile last forever

Let me dance with your embrace

The only thing keeping me whole

Let’s make forever our destination

Posted in Thinkingoutloud

Tickets To Venice

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Tickets to Venice

Another thing I can’t afford

Like Empty Kisses

And Sleepless nights courting a heart that was never yours

Roads that lead to nowhere

Arguments to simply argue

Fluffy fibs floating facades

To fool me into thinking that I have you

On a flight to Venice

With no passport and no luggage

No restrain just disdain

For the dreams that have smothered

To buy tickets to Venice

But I’ll never get to go

Synthetic familiarities are all I have to show

For every moment I had hope

And every time I chose you

Completely aware that your words are never true